Creed

So I am driving home from the Fire Department a bit ago and a CREED song came on. It was an older one. But I remember when Nate and I started dating that there was a new/er CREED CD out and there were two songs on that CD that I just loved. When this song came on- it just made me think of my brother.. but really I wanted to hear the other song. The other song came to my mind so quickly because I remember my mom saying years ago how this song reminds her of Shane.. like when he had Chloe- then he had Ashtyn and Addi. So, I get home and look it up, I knew I would know the CD case cover.. and my gosh, I feel old- it was in 1999. The song that I wanted to hear, but I dont want to hear.. because I will cry is ARMS WIDE OPEN!

With Arms Wide Open
Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I closed my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the man I have to be
I'll take a breath, take her by my side
We stand in awe, we've created life
With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he's not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open...

This is the kind of music I remember in my teenage years my brother listening to. I was in college, my freshman year, when I got a voicemail on my answering machine that was from my brother. He was telling me to call him back. And then at the end of the message, he added AUNT to Cassey.. and I knew. I was so happy. My mom was beside herself for a while and I kept reminding her that we need to be grateful that Shane was 21... no a teenager, not still in high school... she got over it! Then when Chloe came into this world, well.. it was all about love. But this song is one that my mom always thought of Shane about.

I just wanted to put this down, so I can always remember thoughts I haev at certain times. As I listened to the CREED song that was on the radio I got that nervous/scared feeling of how this can not be true.

Not.My.Brother.